myself.

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the other day, I looked at myself
smiled because I finally recognized myself
for the first time in a long time I loved myself
and I felt good, just relaxing and being myself.

I remember when I hated myself
low expectations, hesitations,
I debated myself
coming in and out of false representations of myself
wondering why I could not find some good relations for myself
not realizing I was fantasizing a false image of myself
I pretended that I had mended broken pieces of myself
but inside I’d always hide the little messes of myself

it took a minute to admit I had no purpose in myself
no heart no soul no life no goal
the living dead and not myself.
I lost my mind and almost lost the things held dearest to myself
got caught up in a world of sin the Spirit lost inside myself
but then my Lord stepped in-reached down to save the wretch that was myself
my lowest point in life and He became a friend like no one else.

and that’s really all that this woman can say about herself:
“I once was blind but now I see” how great it is to be myself.
no longer burdened by the constant misery that took my breath
not feeling lonely or denied, not feeling angry or bereft
He set me free- and I am blessed with a new image of myself
safe and secure, rested, assured
none of those bad things that I felt.

the other day, I looked at myself
smiled because I finally recognized myself
for the first time in a long time I loved myself
and I felt good, just relaxing and being myself.

 

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