I am usually geeked about this time of the year. Beyond the many reminders about the “reason for the season” (in my world it’s Jesus), I love the sights and lights, sappy movies, Christmas carols, and the excitement of my kids. While I do not enjoy shopping, I do find picking out just the right thing for each family member satisfying. Gourmet coffees, wind chimes, special tools, new fragrances–it all makes for a joyous occasion. All the shopping and bopping culminates in our yearly trip to MS to see the family. So usually, I am in a good mental space, right?
Not this year. This year I feel kinda put upon, for lack of a better way to say it. I don’t feel like traveling. Or shopping. Or wrapping gifts. Or listening to Mariah Carey talk about all she wants for Christmas. Or drive all the way to Mississippi to appease my family. I just am not feeling it. Even my body is all like: NOPE! I have developed my yearly stress cough, my chest rattling like a 90-year old man with pneumonia. This happens to me every year around this time. Why? Because I end up stretched thin somewhere between the end of October and New Years. This year has been no different. There was too much going on at home and church and work all at once, and every single one was pulling at me. Now I am sick and everyone else is all tra-la-la.
But you know what? That is the symptom and not the cause. I am really just not into Christmas this year because I am tired of doing the same things over and over, and now on top of that doing it out of obligation. This has been a year of making changes for the good of myself and my family. Christmas this year is like the lone holdover to habits that we have been changing. The redundancy of it all is chafing, I think. I want to do something different–start a new tradition with my husband and kids during this time of the year–not keep repeating the same old tired stuff. It really is not how we as a family are made.
Anyway, this time next year, I will have something else to share besides my ba! humbug. I am going to make it through with this horrible cough through this holiday and start planning an adventure for next year that doesn’t involve the same old-same old.