So do not throw away this confident trust in the Lord. Remember the great reward it brings you! Patient endurance is what you need now, so that you will continue to do God’s will. Then you will receive all that he has promised. (Hebrews 10:35-36 NLT)
Even though I write quite frequently concerning faith, self age, value, and the like, I am human. I falter just like anybody else. Sometimes things just get hard–unbearable even. I am not immune to the weighty problems that life loves to pile on. When I get weary in well doing, I have the same decisions to make as everybody else. I have to consider: do I let it swallow me up? Or do I power through? Should I give up? Or is it possible to carry on?
99.9999998% of the time I keep moving forward because I have a gift for monster endurance: a weeping, crawling, bleeding, broken ability to keep going despite the signs saying to quit. In that 0.0000002% when I stop, those are really pauses where I just need to take care of myself after utterly falling apart. Why put myself through all that, you ask? Well, I just don’t know any other way to be! I have a thing inside me where God has set the default position to “NEVER GIVE UP”. And usually, if I do not quit, I make it to the glory on the other side.
Nothing worth anything in life comes easy. Even real love takes an insane amount of work. And in order to get the miracle, you have to pass through the mess. I have mastered the art of messy parts, I guess. I have come to expect it. I distrust things that comes too easily–not because I think that nothing ever will be easy or even because I think some negative force or the devil is punting my blessings out of reach. I just know that valuable things are never fully free; there is a cost to even the most priceless treasures. So I just expect pushback on my way to greatness.
And nothing lasts forever. Bad times come and go, as do good. Happiness is replaced with sadness; mourning with dancing. The only thing that never changes for me is the patient endurance with which I meet each new challenge, and the calm assurance that everything will work for my good. Even when it doesn’t FEEL good.